Let It Be

18 Feb

There’s a little-known version of Let It Be  by the Beatles. The last verse has different lyrics.

And when the night is cloudy

There is still a light that shines on me

Shine until tomorrow

Let it be.

I wake up to the sound of music

Mother Mary comes to me

There will be no sorrow

Let it be.

When Lili was just a few months old I’d sing Beatles songs to her, and this one was always present. It was the one I used to calm her down.

I’d always sing that line – “There will be no sorrow”

I had googled the lyrics when she was a few weeks old and found this version. Something about it struck a chord. So this was what I sang.

There will be no sorrow.

By the time she was a year old, I’d phased out the song. No particular reason. Maybe the use of “Mother Mary” gave my atheist sensibilities a sense of unease. Maybe I just thought she didn’t like it anymore.

Lili is almost 2 and a half now. Over the last few weeks I’ve started singing it to her again. My voice always cracking at the end.

There will be no sorrow

Let it be

She’s been asking for it when I tuck her in. “Sing lettibe mommy”

So I do

Last night I sang it to her and she asked “what is it?”

“What’s what baby?”

“What lettibe?”

“It means to leave something as it is. To… To keep it the same.”

I struggled to find a definition because it’s not something that can easily be defined.

Maybe it means to leave something alone. A pushback against the conformity.

There will be no sorrow

Let it be

Let the sorrow live. Let the sorrow wash over me and stay a while.

I haven’t been able to stop crying today.

And it’s not even his birthday yet.

There will be no sorrow

Let it be.

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7 Responses to “Let It Be”

  1. Courtney February 18, 2016 at 05:21 #

  2. April February 18, 2016 at 06:26 #

    *hugs* He will never be forgotten. Let your sorrow be.

  3. Connie February 18, 2016 at 16:31 #

    He will always be there…let it be….

  4. Mrs T February 18, 2016 at 17:10 #

    I was just thinking of you this morning. Sending love to you, my friend.

  5. Geochick February 18, 2016 at 20:48 #

    ((hugs))

  6. notundecided February 18, 2016 at 22:47 #

    Be in no hurry to dry those tears. ❤

  7. Alissa February 19, 2016 at 09:34 #

    Sending love and hugs and remembering Nadav. Wow, this post really spoke to me…a lot. Thank you. Can’t believe it’s just about 4 years since we lost our babies…and how time keeps passing along.

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