Bullets and Bunnies – Eviction Notice Edition

30 Aug
  • So yesterday was my last ever appointment at the high-risk OB’s. There was hugging of nurses and a bit of crying. A lot of mixed emotions. After all, I’ve spent a lot of time there over the last six months, and they’ve helped me keep B5 safe all this time… B5 passed her NST with flying colors and all else is looking good. She’s also sitting REALLY low, which I suppose is a good thing (though my bladder protests). I asked the doc to check whether I was dilated, and he flat-out refused, saying it would only drive me crazy to know either way, and I’m better off just waiting for labor to start. He has a good point.
  • I got that pedicure. I’ve also shaved my legs (THAT was a challenge). My bottom half is officially presentable. My top half is still grumpy and impatient. As for my middle – Poopik is still not amused.
  • My cousin is a nurse midwife, and I messaged her a couple of days ago because I seriously felt like my head was going to explode. I wanted to come into the high-risk OB and beg for an induction. Shmerson and I were literally trying EVERYTHING. I had 4 acupuncture sessions in as many days. We ate spicy food. We took walks. It was nuts. So my cousin called me and she managed to talk me down. She reminded me that it was my choice to keep going here. If I wanted to, I could always ask for an elective C-section and avoid this whole thing. She reminded me that the final goal is a healthy B5 and a healthy me. Everything else is gravy. And she totally talked me out of begging for that induction. She did say this: “Whatever the doctors say, you listen. Nobody gives out medals for how you give birth. They have your best interest at heart, so don’t argue.” She’s a natural birth person all the way, so coming from her this is significant advice. I’m taking it. She did try to talk me out of an epidural though. Not sure if it worked. I’m still in wait and see mode on that, and pretty convinced that when the time comes, I’m going to want the drugs.  Still, she managed to talk me off the ledge in general. I’m still going nuts, but I am no longer yelling at inanimate objects (yeah, um, I was doing that), and the crying fits have cut down from about 6 a day to about 3 a day. Progress.
  • On that note, aside from taking walks and some mega-awkward preggo sex, Shmerson and I have declared an end to wives tale induction methods. All it did was frustrate me even more. So we’re done.
  •  Let’s talk some dates, shall we? I’ve been told to show up at L&D on Tuesday (40 weeks exactly) for an assessment. General consensus (at least according to the high risk nurse, the OB, and my cousin) is that the hospital OBs will decide to induce that day because of the GD. There are two caveats to this: The first – Wednesday is Rosh Hashanah eve, so they may want me to wait until after the holiday, and the second – B5 seems awfully happy in there. They may deem it too soon despite my GD because she seems to be thriving. Hospitals here are pretty different from the ones in the States in that they avoid medical intervention whenever possible, so you really never know. With normal pregnancies induction talk only really starts around 41 weeks, and even then not always. Then again, GD is still a factor. Either way, I will be going in on Tuesday with the hospital bag in the trunk, in case it’s eviction notice time and we’re coming in for the long haul.
  • Some more about dates: Her due date is September 3rd. Shmerson’s birthday is September 2nd. My nephew’s birthday is August 31st, and a four day Rosh Hashanah Holiday kicks in on September 4th (meaning hospital staff will be smaller, and everything there will be generally slower and suckier, plus – the bassinet rental place will be closed so she will have nowhere to sleep if we get discharged in the middle of the holiday). I don’t want her to share a birthday with my nephew – that would kind of suck for both of them. I also think it would be silly if she shares a birthday with Shmerson. I want her to have her own day. So I’ve been trying to convince her to come out today. But as usual, it seems she’s on her own schedule.  I’ve begun negotiations on a September 1st birthday as well, though that still smacks of the first day of school to me (even though these days school starts earlier, you never know, and having a birthday on the first day of school SUCKS). She’ll probably end up showing up smack dab in the middle of the holiday, just to make sure we know who’s in charge. We may have to bite the bullet and go rent the bassinet early this week rather than wait until after. I don’t know how I feel about that. A bit freaked I guess. But it may be the best way to go.
  • Seriously! My blood glucose strips ran out yesterday, my vial of insulin also ran out, so I had to buy more. This kid has absolutely no sense of timing. Had she come yesterday she would have totally saved me the trip.
  • Zen epiphany from this morning: I may have issues trusting my body, but B5 is a freaking rock star. Labor is about both of us. And I trust her completely. That’s one less thing to be scared about.
  • Apart from freaking out about things going wrong, the “holy shit I’m going to be a parent” freak outs have started coming too. There’s a good chance that sometime next week I will have a whole new person to take care of. Holy crap that is terrifying.
  • So I’m writing these bullets out, and all of the sudden it hits me that I wrote out like 5 bullets that are really pretty optimistic. Then I’m like – “shit – what if something goes wrong?” Cue the panic attack. Welcome to PTSD guys. It’s a barrel of laughs over here.
  • Despite my continuing freak outs, I did realize that chances are, that this weekend is the last weekend Shmerson and I will have to ourselves in a very very long time. We’ve decided to go out tonight and celebrate his birthday early, relax, watch some movies, and maybe marathon some Dr. Who. I just want us to enjoy each other this weekend. So that’s the plan.
  • I don’t know if I’ll update here before Tuesday. I’m also a bit reticent to do a live play-by-play on here if I do get induced. Do you guys want to know once labor kicks in? Or would you rather just hear afterwards? Keep in mind that if I post about labor, I may not be able to update for quite a while…
  • I leave you with a bunny:


22 Responses to “Bullets and Bunnies – Eviction Notice Edition”

  1. delenn August 30, 2013 at 15:03 #

    Wishing you the best of luck! Hope the next ;post will she will be here!

  2. Kathryn August 30, 2013 at 15:07 #

    I vote for knowing when labor starts, but that’s just me.. I like to know everything about everything. But you just do what is best for you!
    I LOVE what you said about trusting your baby… omg that made me tear up.
    Enjoy your weekend with just the two of you. Lots of cuddles!

  3. Courtney August 30, 2013 at 15:40 #

    I read this post with lots if “yays” going off in my head! Yay for last OB appointments, yay for that pedicure, yay for your cousin being so supportive of YOU and not her own ideals, yay for peace of mind, and yay for trusting B5! Things are so great right now, and that makes me happy!

    I would love to know when the show is on the road, but only post that if you want to and if you have time. Don’t worry about us!!

  4. missohkay August 30, 2013 at 15:56 #

    We’ll be happy with the news either way, but I like to know when labor kicks off so that I can send good vibes in overtime. I only have minor panic attacks when hours and hours pass with no updates 😉

  5. nelipotting August 30, 2013 at 16:29 #

    Whenever you update, we’ll read it with joy! And I’ll be obsessively checking your blog over here until everything is done. 🙂 But yeah, I’d love to know when labor starts… if not though, I’ll be ecstatic just to know “she’s here!” I hope this is a wonderful weekend for the two of you! I have mixed feelings about epidurals. I know that I had to have one, because otherwise I might have ripped a body part off of my husband… but then afterward I was all sad that I didn’t take time to “experience and appreciate” the feeling of labor. Then the other side of my brain says “appreciate my ass, give me those drugs!” Eh. All in all, epidural was the best for me. 🙂 And my ONLY good advice for labor is… what I tell everyone and the only thing I remember from my prenatal classes… each contraction is a step. It will come and then leave and never return. Another one may come, but that same one will never be back. Each one will take its turn and then leave, never to return. And each contraction is just one step closer to holding that baby. Take them one at a time. I don’t know, it sounds cheesy but it definitely helped me stay sane. Good luck! Hugs, labor dust, and good pain meds!

  6. Kathy August 30, 2013 at 16:36 #

    Yay, Yay and more Yays ! You are awesome ! Enjoy the weekend and your own personal Labour Day when it happens. Good Luck !

  7. Melanie August 30, 2013 at 16:49 #

    Oh so close to the end of one chapter and the beginning of another. I can only imagine what PTSD feels like – mostly because there’s no way we’d try again (I guess that’s PTSD talking right there so maybe I know just a little). Anyway, I wish you a lovely night of togetherness, a short wait for the show to start, an easy labour and delivery (you’ve been through enough), drugs if you want them, a swift labour if you don’t and YES, I for one would love to know when the next phase of the story begins.
    Also, you might consider picking up the bassinet and leaving it with someone else or having someone else deal with the renting, collecting and storage so it’s there if you require it during the holiday, but not hanging around triggering anxiety. Good Luck!

  8. newmom August 30, 2013 at 17:23 #

    I have been checking your blog like two times a day to see if you had B5 yet! Haha I’m not a freak I swear but just want to know like someone said above. Your cousin sounds awesome! I know my anxiety is helped by being prepared so if it were me I’d get the bassinet. But that’s me and you are you! (My hubby and I bought a carseat already and I’m just 24 weeks. NICU made us nuts). Anyway Good Luck 🙂

  9. Erin August 30, 2013 at 17:46 #

    Oh brother! I was just reading that most women give birth in week 39, then the second most common week is 38, followed by 40. You’re taking the long route! I would say post whatever you’re comfortable with as far as the labor is concerned. I’ll be thinking about you and your sweet little girl.

  10. SM August 30, 2013 at 18:34 #

    So many good things in this post! I’m anxiously awaiting the arrival post!

  11. expectantmummy August 30, 2013 at 20:43 #

    you post when you want to post. Thinking of you and hoping for a safe healthy delivery for you both. Massive hugs (Im 39 weeks on Tuesday I know how frustrated you must be feeling). I cant wait to read your next update, whenever you post it! 😀 And that bunny was just plain amazeballs by the way hehehe xxxxxxx

  12. Louisa August 30, 2013 at 21:18 #

    So freakin excited for you!! I think you are getting awesome advice all around about labor and I’m so glad there has been a reduction in the freak outs! Whenever you update we will be ready and cheering!

  13. Daryl August 30, 2013 at 21:39 #

    So many things about this post make me smile! B5 will get here when she’s ready, and I LOVE that you’re trusting her to do that! It’s getting so close! Oh, and that drunk little bunny cracks me up.

  14. psychsarah August 30, 2013 at 22:12 #

    Thinking good thoughts-I’m also at work procrastinating, checking in here, just curious whether the “show is on the road” so to speak. I love the link above-wish I’d known about it when my son was born (we won’t talk about how late he was, not helpful to you right now). I also felt a warm fuzzy happy feeling for you at the bullet about trusting B5-so amazing 🙂 Try to enjoy the weekend with your man, chilling and doing whatever feels good and relaxing! Sending vibes for comfort, peace and labour all the way from Canada!

  15. Wannabemom August 31, 2013 at 00:06 #

    How about a tweet when labour begins and then a big ol’ welcome to the world post when you’re ready?

    Oh, and Sept 2 is “labour day” here in North America. My money is on that day!

  16. Keisha August 31, 2013 at 18:05 #

    Ok, I got teary when you said that B5 is a rock star and that you trust her. You are amazing, and you will be amazing.
    I can’t wait to hear that she is in your arms.

  17. theyellowblanket September 1, 2013 at 15:34 #

    I love love love that you said you trust B5 in her half of the whole deal. You both have got this!

  18. Amy September 1, 2013 at 17:46 #

    It sounds like overall you are doing pretty great with this torturous wait (what an obnoxious rhyme – sorry, not deleting it!). I am on the very edge of my seat with you, but I hope you’re able to kick back and enjoy the rest of this probable last weekend with just the two of you! I would love to know when labor starts up, but we’d never know what we were missing if your next post is a big SHE’S HERE and nothing else! I know we’ll hear all about it (or hope so, anyhow) whenever the time is right. Keep up that trust in B5 – you’re right, total rock star!

  19. Ctrl+Alt+Mum September 2, 2013 at 04:37 #

    All the best for the big day, whichever day that ends up being. Trust in yourself and in your body and you’ll be A-OK. Can’t wait to hear the good news when you decide to share it.

  20. Kate @ Infertile First Mom September 2, 2013 at 14:16 #

    Today being labor day here in the states, you guys are on my mind. I hope it’s happening right now, and that everything is going smoothly! Trusting B5 is such a great instinct. She knows what to do even if everyone else seems clueless sometimes. Let us know when you feel up to it… And know we’re sending all sorts of positive thoughts from all over the world!

    (Oh, and thanks for the lovely bunny:)

    • Mo September 2, 2013 at 14:18 #

      Thanks Kate! Alas, so far no new developments. Le sigh.

  21. Trish September 3, 2013 at 04:22 #

    I just keep pushing (much like you are about to do 😉 refresh on your page to check for updates. Best wishes for your and B5’s big day. Positive thoughts from San

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