Time elapsed since first BFP: 17 months
Total time spent pregnant in those 17 months: 6 and a half months
Number of pregnancies: 4
Number of take-home babies so far: 0
Number of times a sac has been viewed: 2
Number of times a heartbeat has been detected: 0
Number of anxiety attacks in the last 8 months: 1
Number of anxiety attacks in the last 24 hours: 1
Number of text messages sent to the Russian asking him to please let me come in earlier: 2
Number of times the Russian said yes: 0 (he did say no nicely though)
Number of days until the scan that will either show us a heartbeat or make me lose my shit: 14
I thought that time was supposed to fly when you’re doing big things like moving and remodeling a house. Apparently being in the early throes of a pregnancy for an RPLer negates that notion completely. Urgh.
Oh, and thank you everyone for your awesome comments yesterday. I love you guys, seriously.
Here’s a bunny, because Cookie gave me permission and I need to feel better:
I hope time speeds up for you and that you get to hear and see that gallpoing heartbeat in 2 weeks time. I am praying that this pregnancy brings you your rainbow baby. take care
Keep on bunnying. I love it! Totally going to steal that if that’s ok. 🙂
Of course! Glad you like it. 🙂
I’m so sorry, Mo. I wish I knew a trick to make waiting easier for you. Or had an inside on black market ultrasounds. Keep on bunnying.
xoxoxoxxoxoxoxxo
❤ We are nervous right here with you. But for the record, I still have a good feeling about Schmembryo, even though it's damn hard to type.
14 DAYS?! really?! ugh. That’s a long time from now. 😦
I once counted up the amount of time I’ve spent pregnant over the last two years and it was 9 months. I was really pissed when I discovered that.
*hugs* Seriously. What we need is a time machine. Or some way to cryogenically freeze our brains while our bodies stumble around, doing what they need to.
The beginning is the worst. It just drags and drags and drags. I HATE it.
missohkay said it perfectly Hugz!
I don’t understand why you need permission for a bunny.
I would be pretty wiggy if I had to wait another two weeks too. Seriously wiggy. But you know what? This is going to be the big one. The one that you get to take home and snuggle and dress up like a bunny for their first Halloween (do you do that in Israel?) Or their first Pesach.
Either way- here’s hoping you can stay calm-ish enough to get through the next 14 days. Hey, pee on a stick! Any old stick will do, even chopsticks! It might make you feel more normal 🙂
14 more days – that sucks! Get to this weekend, then you have a week, then another weekend and then a couple of days – so just 4 units of time – does that help? And do some meditation or something during this time. And move house. Whilst it feels forever now, each day without incident is a little bit better.
Well, end of 14 days, I hope you get to know what a galloping horse sounds like…..that’s how it sounds to me, lady!
All the best!
Have a schedule….movie ABC on such and such….manicure/pedicure/haircut on two different days…dinners outside the house with Shmerson on xyz days and so on…..and books….and more movies…..and then the Russian….
You are amazingly strong. I don’t know how you do it and still manage to have words for everyone else.
Hang in there! Take it one day at a time.
Big hugs!
It’s like one of those Mastercard commercials… only not as fun. Hugs.
Mo, I’m terribly behind on my commenting. I want you to know that I think of you and your Shembryo Every Single Day. I’m not kidding. I am sending you as much strength as I can muster. You are an amazingly strong woman who has been so supportive and inspirational to other woman battling infertility. There is not a doubt in my mind that you can’t handle whatever the future holds. Big hugs all the way from Kentucky.
Ay yi yi. I am sending best-possible-outcome vibes your way.