Another Thought Vomit Post

4 Sep

Maybe it’s  just the way I roll lately. Or maybe it’s because I’ve had a long day on 4 hours sleep. Either way,  here come the bullets!

  • The stupid fake pregnancy “breast cancer awareness” meme caught me off guard. I only saw one post by a FB friend, and I was on the verge of tears, thinking she was preggo with her third child. I was so angry I shared every blog post I found about it. And some angry status updates. Let’s just put it this way: if anyone DIDN’T know I was a bitter infertile before, they sure as hell know now. And I don’t care at this point. How many women who are infertile due to breast cancer, would support this? And tell me, how the heck is this stupid meme helping find a cure for breast cancer? But why don’t you just go over and read Elphie’s post. She’s far more eloquent than I on the subject. I’m just pissed.
  • I got a +OPK yesterday. That’s CD 18, the earliest it’s been in a while. Methinks this is good news about my cycle. I’ve been worried about how late I’ve been popping lately. This makes me officially in the TWW. But I think I’m not going to go crazy this time. I have too much other stuff on my plate, plus – I promised Shmerson. We’ll see what the next week or so brings. I’m sure I’ll be peeing my heart out within the week, but that’s just because I’ll take any opportunity to pee on stuff.
  • Speaking of peeing on stuff – I went on an infertile shopping spree last week. I had to order something for my mom online when I saw a pop-up – Sale on his and her’s fertility tests! I couldn’t resist. I thought it was time Shmerson got his bodily fluids analyzed for a change. You know, just for the fun of it. Plus – it was half price! And then, two more pop-ups! Pre-seed and FRER HPT’s! It’s an infertile discount bonanza! I’ve never had the pleasure of peeing on a FRER , since they don’t sell them over here (did I mention they were on sale?)! I figure if I end up getting knocked up before this stuff ships, I can always do a giveaway. So don’t judge me, ok? Seriously, don’t. Ok, judge me a little. But keep in mind, if I do get knocked up and do a giveaway, judging me will seriously hurt your chances. Ok. Not really. Fine. Judge me.
  • I have gained weight in the last month. Not much, but enough so that my jeans are incredibly uncomfortable (the not-completely-healed-yet incisions from my lap have exacerbated the situation). So I’ve started to buy summer dresses. They are awesome (I like a nice breeze ’round my privates, thankyouverymuch). But I have to admit, I find myself looking at my profile in the mirror and imagining my stomach sticking out with a nice round bump under these dresses, and think to myself: “If I get knocked up it’s one less maternity item to buy! The bump would fit in here nicely!”. That’s not wrong at all. Right? Right?!?!
  • Looks like things are moving forward with the apartment. If all goes well (knock on wood) we’ll be ready to do a bit of remodeling on the new place within a month, and hopefully move in sometime in mid-late October. My mom’s an interior designer (lucky me, right?) and we’ve been starting to get price quotes and making plans. It’s really exciting. The thing is, every time I walk into this place I hear my future kids running around the empty rooms. It makes me incredibly happy, but also incredibly sad sometimes. I’m hoping the happy wins out when we move in.
  • I was totally honored that Mel put my post about sex on this week’s blog round up. The comments on the post, and the emails I’ve been getting as a result gave me an idea, and I want to know what you think about it: I’m thinking of starting something on the blog called “Group Therapy Thursdays”. It would go something like this: You guys send me questions about stuff that’s bugging you. Your sex life, relationships, IF issues, whatever. I post your questions here (anonymously of course), give my take on them, and then open them up for discussion in the comments. I think that despite the relative anonymity of the blogosphere, a lot of us still have “real-life” friends that read our blogs, or our husbands, or whatever, so we may sometimes feel restrained in what we write about and open up for discussion. This became very clear to me because of the responses to last week’s post.  This will give people a chance to discuss this stuff anonymously, and really delve into the taboos of our situations. Also – not every one of you guys is a blogger, so this would give you an opportunity to get some support and advice without having your own platform, and while remaining anonymous. Sort of like a “Dear Abby”, only with an emphasis on community feedback and discussion. So what do you guys think? Good idea? Bad idea? Let me know in the comments (yes Marie, this is totally a result of my recent addiction to the Savage Lovecast)!
So that’s it for today. My baby-crazies taking on the form of shopping sprees, facebook bitterness, and a crazy idea that I kind of like. What do you guys think? Judge me Let me know in the comments!
PS – I’m tempted to post a bunny. I won’t. But I’m tempted. Just sayin’.
PPS – Apparently, this is my 250th post! W00t w00t!

14 Responses to “Another Thought Vomit Post”

  1. me0me September 4, 2011 at 23:12 #

    I knew something good would come of my obsession with the Savage Lovecast and trying to make everyone listen to it 🙂

    • Mo September 4, 2011 at 23:49 #

      Totally. This is all your fault! But like, in a good way. 🙂

  2. BleedingTulip September 4, 2011 at 23:35 #

    OK, I wasn’t going to judge you for the internet purchases. But I find I have to judge you for not posting a bunny. *big judge-y eyes squinting at you*


    I too tend to find myself looking at clothes I have on and thinking “wouldn’t this outfit be cute with a baby bump?” (instead of my gross fat, ugh) Of course I say that as I sit here eating cookies… I’ve totally fallen off the diet wagon, but I feel I’m entitled…

    I love your Thursday idea!!!!!!!!!!!! Since my husband has decided to start reading my blog I may utilize it… I also don’t think I have a strong enough readership to always give feedback on my questions. Bravo m’dear!

    • Mo September 4, 2011 at 23:49 #

      I thought you may have an issue with me not posting a bunny! 😛
      Glad you like the idea!

  3. Marie September 5, 2011 at 04:13 #

    First, props for Savage Love. Second, ALWAYS post a bunny.

  4. eggsinarow September 5, 2011 at 05:49 #

    Well, at least you are buying things you can use. I had to literally RUN away from the Gap today…they had the prettiest little girl clothes. Which I so desparately need, right? I was so close to buying it. I also told D to be careful because I’m thisclose to being one of those weird ladies who collects dolls and brings them out in public, in a baby carriage. Just so I have something to dress in the cutest Gap clothes ever. Oy. VERY EXCITED for Thursdays!

    • Mo September 5, 2011 at 19:28 #

      I stay away from baby stores like the plague. I know I won’t have the will power to deal with it… 🙂

  5. Esperanza September 5, 2011 at 06:42 #

    It turns out bullet points beget bullet points. Go figure!
    – That meme was so obnoxious. Luckily I rarely grace the ‘book with my presence so I didn’t see any of that bullshit until I knew what was going on. Thank god or I would have been not very nice about it.

    – Glad to see you are popping earlier. I’m actually worrying that I’m popping too soon as my last few cycles have been really short (my LP is a pretty consistent 12 days). Blerg. I am so not looking forward to temping and OPKing again.

    – Yay for sales! Yay for 1/2 off. When you don’t have to pay half of what something costs you’re pretty much obligated to buy it.

    – Sorry you’re dealing with some unwanted weight gain. I think flow-y summer dresses are a great idea. Not only will they be awesome when you are pregnant but you’ll love them after too. I still wear so much stuff I bought when I was pregnant, a lot of it was maternity but some of it was just flowy stuff. Those dresses will be invaluable soon enough! 😉 Also, this parenthetical (I like a nice breeze ’round my privates, thankyouverymuch) reminded me of a funny story I wanted to share. When I lived in Madrid I bought a couple of short dresses that I wore a lot when it was hot. One day I was getting dressed when my window was wide open and I couldn’t make it across the room to put on panties before I got on my dress (foreshadowing). I was about fifteen minutes away from my dorm when I noticed that things felt wonderfully breezy “down there” and it took my a few minutes to realize it was because I was “going commando” as they say. And this was in a VERY SHORT DRESS. I didn’t have time to go back so basically my vagaj was about two inches from total exposure all day. It was both terrifying and liberating at the same time.

    – I can’t wait to see your finished apartment. CAN. NOT. WAIT.

    – As for “Group Therapy Thursdays” – yespleasethankyouverymuch. As for your sex piece, I’m going to be writing very candidly about that soon on my blog, mostly because I’m inspired by your honest treatment of it. I have been very honest about our own issues with “the deed” but I stayed silent on that topic for a long time. I think that needs to change. Sex is such an important topic for IFers as well as parents.

    Oh Mo, I so adore you and your blog. Your recent emails meant the WORLD to me and I took a lot of notes on how to be a better friend myself some day. Thank you.


    • Mo September 5, 2011 at 19:32 #

      Oh thanks hon! You’re the best!
      And that is the funniest. story. ever! 🙂

  6. St. Elsewhere September 5, 2011 at 15:58 #

    LOL, I totally managed to post about the darned FB meme though I had no intentions too. I loved Mel’s post on it. Very articulate.

    And wouldn’t you love to know, I too like a nice breeze ’round my privates. Ha Ha Ha!

    Good Luck for the cycle. You haz ovulated, and you shall do the deed!

    • Mo September 5, 2011 at 19:33 #

      thank you! 🙂
      Mel’s post was awesome as well. So eloquent, as per usual!

  7. Mrs. Corrock September 6, 2011 at 02:32 #

    Since my lap, i’ve too gained weight…I don’t have any clothes and fear buying clothes because then I have to admit to buying a bigger size..

    BTW. I love Dan Savage!! His blog/weekly columns are addictive.

  8. JM September 6, 2011 at 23:09 #

    Not wrong at all! Happy TWW!!! Very exciting.

    Also, I now have season passes set up for T&T and Teen Mom. That’s how I’m going to get through this IUI #2 cycle. God help me.


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