There Are No Words

4 May

Today was a hard day. I spent most of it crying. On my way back from my weekly therapy/acupuncture double whammy, I went to the post office to pick up a package. It was from Marie.

What I got in that package was so moving, I actually pulled out my iPhone and videotaped my reaction.

To understand – first, click here and read Marie’s story.

Now for my reaction  it’s a private video (that’s why I can’t embed it) – only people who click on the link can see it because with all due respect – I still don’t want the whole world to have access to my ugly cry. (Oh – and I got today’s date wrong on it. Oh well.)

And now – one long ass shower and carrot cake cookie later, the final (blurry) product:

I spent today thinking that I don’t know where I’d find the strength to take care of myself again. To love my body again.

Then this came in the mail and reminded me just how much I am loved.

There are no words.

And I already know when I will be taking it off and passing it on. But I’m gonna keep that part a surprise.

I love all of you. I don’t know where I’d be if it wasn’t for this amazing community.

Thank you.

And thank you Marie. Thank you thank you thank you. Thank you isn’t even close to enough.

19 Responses to “There Are No Words”

  1. Ready4Miracle May 4, 2011 at 17:19 #

    Wow— ur video had me in tears!!! What an awesomely selfless gift!! It moved me so much – it is a perfect example of the REAL love and support this community of women has for one another and I am so grateful and blessed to be a part of something so special and genuine!!!! 🙂 thank you for sharing such a special moment with us!!! The video made it so much more real- and I know it wasn’t easy for you to share, so thank you!!!

  2. zygotta May 4, 2011 at 17:24 #

    I cried with you

  3. Esperanza May 4, 2011 at 17:38 #

    Wow, what an amazing gesture of hope and love that Marie sent you. You are very loved and I’m so glad someone reached out to you in a way that allowed you to really know that, deep in your heart. Marie is a very wonderful friend indeed.

    Your video gave me a good “ugly cry” too, which is probably for the best as many people have asked me if how I’m doing today (apparently I look “disheveled” and “tired” – thanks everyone!) At least now I have a reason for looking like shit.

    Thank you for sharing that moment with us. Thank you.

  4. myskytimes May 4, 2011 at 18:27 #

    Now words… just a few tears shed along with you. Love the present… priceless. Loved to see the video, sending a big virtual hug! xx

  5. Fran May 4, 2011 at 19:16 #

    I was in tears too! your video is really moving, at least as much as the very thoughtful present you received.
    Love, Fran

  6. Dawn May 4, 2011 at 20:00 #

    I can make you some pretty bead options too…give me your measurements. 🙂

    • Marie May 4, 2011 at 20:46 #

      That’s measurements for how long a chain you want, not like bust and waist and stuff.

      I didn’t send my beads because they are so “well-loved” from being worn daily for almost a year. But Dawn is awesome and made me two different color schemes so I could match the necklace to whatever I was wearing that day.

      Yaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy I’m so glad you liked it and got where I was going with the idea of sending it to you. No fair to keep something that’s served its purpose to me when people I love could be benefitting from it.

      Can’t wait to learn the secret of your “end date,” and see where my little hand travels next!


      • Mo May 5, 2011 at 01:08 #

        Dawn – you rock. Apparently rocking runs in the family. 🙂
        The thing is I have no idea how to take necklace measurements. I’m clueless about that stuff. Though I admit your fashion sense is way better than mine and I don’t even know if I need something that matches. Right now the silver chain is awesome. Then again I’m clueless. Help?

  7. slcurwin May 4, 2011 at 22:20 #

    That is beautiful. I love things being passed on like that, all the meaning behind it. Marie, you are amazing and Mo, you are very lucky to have that passed on to you. I’m so happy it got to you on such a day as it did.

    On a side note: what is that symbol for? I have a belly bar bell with that on it and I never knew what it was.

    • Marie May 5, 2011 at 06:32 #

      Click Mo’s link to my original post; it sort of explains it – at least my understanding of it.

  8. Kristin May 4, 2011 at 23:28 #

    What an absolutely beautiful and touching gift. I love it.

  9. Mo May 5, 2011 at 01:05 #

    Thanks everyone. I never thought I’d ever vlog. It’s amazing what a bit of long-distance love will make a person do. Wow. that came out way dirtier than I meant it to be.

  10. missohkay May 5, 2011 at 02:57 #

    That’s so wonderful. It had me in tears too. Thanks for sharing. I don’t know what I’d do without this community either.

  11. Cattiz J May 5, 2011 at 11:03 #

    Wow, you are one brave woman for sharing that video! I’m so sorry you are hurting. What a perfect gift from Marie and pass on symbol.

    I left you an award, pick it up if you are game.

  12. Elphaba May 5, 2011 at 14:39 #

    I cried too. What a wonderful gesture Marie 🙂

  13. marriage20 May 5, 2011 at 20:41 #

    Amazing. I am sending you huge virtual hugs right now. xo

  14. Reusethematerialgirl May 6, 2011 at 16:48 #

    Beautiful. What a loving gift of friendship… from Marie’s mom to her, from her to you. Yes, exactly what you need, a healing hand. May it bless you… Hugs.

  15. BleedingTulip May 13, 2011 at 00:06 #

    I’m playing catch up; your video literally brought tears to me eyes. You are so loved, and so deserving of knowing that.

  16. deepdreamer May 20, 2011 at 13:53 #

    Oh Mo, I cried right along with you. I hope it brings you all the love you need. I am with you sweet xxxx

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