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A confession

7 Jan

My name is mommyodyssey and I’m a baby-holic.

It’s been approximately two minutes since the last time I’ve fantasized about having a huge belly and wearing a novelty t-shirt.

I spend a lot of time worrying about taking care of myself and getting better and all. However, I want a baby. Like. Now.

I realize that this is not a healthy addiction. I understand that I must make peace with myself before trying again.

But when I close my eyes, and search for hope – all I see is me – huge, hormonal, and happy – picking out cribs. And then holding the baby in my arms.

I “practice cook” for my future kids, thinking about how to adjust the recipes so they love them.

I make home made chicken fingers and spaghetti once a week because I know that when my daughter(s) will finally discover the magical time that is PMS they’ll ask me to cook it for them because it will be their comfort food.

I read articles on parenting.

I see a little kid walking down the street and I smile at them. I can’t help it.

But I know it’s not time yet.

Darn you – voice of reason! I know I need to let you win here – but just for the record  – YOU SUCK!

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2 Responses to “A confession”

  1. me0me January 7, 2011 at 03:37 #

    But maybe with some patience it won’t seem – or be – as long

  2. slcurwin January 8, 2011 at 10:37 #

    But do you go out and buy things for these kids that aren’t here yet, because I need to stop that, lol. I know Jinxing is a load of crap, but I think that when I do more than fantasising about my future children I just might be.
    At least you can smile at the kids you see. I find it really hard some times because they keep reminding me of what I dont have. To me that says progress.

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